This Is Me

My WDS project is fine. It’s simple and clean.

I’m absolutely pissed. How the hell are we suppose to know what to present for our WDS project. Don’t you dare say, ” It’s common sense lah just try show the website.” That is what i actually did. All we ever received is some question that was posted by the subject head. It states “Some questions that the lecturers might ask.” The only preparation that i can do is preparing all the answers to the question posted online.

All of a sudden, upon presenting, she said that she is only able to give me a B in front of the entire class. She also mentioned that i should present as if I’m selling my website. Here’s the devil coming, SURE HOW ARE WE SUPPOSE TO KNOW THAT. WE WERE ONLY INFORMED THAT WHEN I FINISHED MY PRESENTATION.

That is very absurd. VERY.

To make matters worse, she shot me with such difficult question. What is wrong with Peggy Yeo? Is she out to to fail students? She enjoys seeing students suffer? What is with her ‘unapproachable’ attitude? She always comes to class with a sulky face ever since day 1.

Aren’t teachers suppose to be supportive? Aren’t teachers suppose to be positive? Like Ms Doris Dorothy Yong, my previous secondary 3 and 4 form teacher. Even though in class, she is like mean but we all know that she is just joking. During counseling time with her, she shows like as if she cares.

As i was presenting she shook her head left and right and wrote some things down. Honestly, what is her motive for doing that? Not only me, she did the same thing to Ivan. Ivan said this while we were walking, “I was presenting and she shook her head left and right i felt totally demoralize upon seeing that.”

WHAT IS HER MOTIVE? DOES SHE HATE US THAT MUCH? *Looks up to the sky and in dismay only can see the ceiling* God, WHAT DID WE DO TO DESERVE THIS?

Recently, a bunch of class complained about Peggy Yeo to our Course Manager, Mr Lim. He tried to help and informed the WDS Subject Leader. The subject leader gave us nothing but false hope. All he do was trying to defend Peggy Yeo. The same thing happens about Mr Anwar defending Sherine Wong back then just because they were fellow colleague. 

I’ve been through something similar and i know whatever the Subject Leader said was totally absurd.

There is a possibility that Peggy Yeo MIGHT read this. I don’t care because everything in this post is entirely based on my opinion. It will be much better if Peggy Yeo reads this so that she is aware of her attitude and hopefully she can be better.

Typical boring post. Random.

Today marks the end of our WDS project. I did pretty badly because i find mine rather plain and i’ve no idea what to add to spice things up and i want it to look professional not that child-like theme. Now it’s 9 PM i just woke up. i didn’t sleep yesterday the whole night trying to complete my project. As far as i know, a lot of people didn’t sleep.

I met Shiming in the lab. It was nice! I think we talked like damn a lot.

And I’m pretty sad at the moment because of some reason. 

The celebration calls for an ending. The glass window broke. 

It was the only time when your $600 paper weight was used.

Strong summer wind broke the glass window. Another obstacle.

When reality sets in.

I wasn’t feeling quite like myself today. I lost the motivation. 

I felt like a fuck less about it.

And Nicholas had to say, Ehh Nazri, you use foundation?-.- Infront of the entire class.

SO WHAT! I didn’t answer but it was pretty embarrassing.

21st century. Metrosexuality. People should stop being so stereotypical.

Things to do: 

1.  Complete my Web Design project(30%)
2.  Study for PRSP Lab test(0%)
3.  Memorise shitloads of JAVA codes(0%)
4.  Study for CARC Lab Test?(0%)
5.  Communication Skills Test 2 coming up(0%().
6.  Building of model for Internet and Information System in Organisations. (IISO)(0%)
7.  IISO PRESENTATION. Freakin’ Hell!(0%)
8. JAVA ASSIGNMENT 2. Which I have yet to start and I heard countless people telling me it’s difficult.
9. WDS Presentation(0%)

P.S.

I so LOLed reading syafiq’s tag! ._.

And I’ve made a new judgement on human being’s attitude. I figured that a human being will only react strongly and emotionally if the person, who has connection with the inner radius, involve has cause that incident to happened.

However, if that person has no inner radius, human beings should be fine and alive and kicking to move on.

People are so down right fucking rude nowadays. What the fuck happened to Moral Education. Why the fuck did we learn Moral Education ever since we’re primary one till secondary four. Fucking fucktards. And yes I’m pissed.

“It doesn’t matter if you can afford non living things when you can’t share it with anyone.”

Who is actually materialistic? I used to think that I’m materialistic but not anymore. Even though i desire numerous items, they’re not really what i need. I kind of told someone what I’m experiencing. I doubt anyone can relate to it.

Anyways, heard of “Your eyes tell me the truth.” ?

Why don’t we use coloured contact lens and masked that up! While we’re at that, put up a facade as well!

World of lies.

“Here, a glimpse of what is harsh.”

Have you ever gossip with someone? Or talk bad things about someone?

While you’re gossiping, does it ever come to your mind that this person is capable of doing such things to you too? Why wouldn’t that person criticize about you behind your back? If he or she hates you that is. 

And off course the above wouldn’t bother you if you always gossip with your best friend.

There is a prevention to the above events. We can always just suck up to everyone and pretend to be nice and play your cards well. There might be just some idiots who will turn their cards against you.

Here comes another issue, hypocritical.

I think there is 2 types of hypocrites. Just like 2 types of lies. There is a white lie and the bad lie. Well, the first type of hypocrite in my opinion is that being nice and not being too straightforward and harsh. You know being hypocrite to be nice to someone. Pretty similar to white lie.

On the other hand, there is the nasty hypocrites. Like betraying your friends or breaking the trust.

If you like to gossip and then be a hypocrite and be nice to everyone.

If you don’t like to gossip then be nasty to everyone. 

Is being hypocritical always a bad thing?

Subjective indeed. Words coming out from a 17 year old.

Isn’t it better to be like me? Just shut up and drive listen. No it isn’t. Another issue will arise from that. Am i trying too hard to achieve perfection?

Sometimes, I’m scared to speak up because what if i said the wrong things and insult? In the past, every time when i said something, i usually get a negative reply. From that, I’m scared to speak up. Do i think too much? I wonder if i usually blog like an adult, mature or it sounds like coming out from a 10 year old kid.

Nazri Chuckled.

I really do need a psychotherapist.

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Today, Ms Chiang decided to gave us back all the term test marks, grades and our banding.

B for Communication Skills (CMSK)
A for Internet and Information System in Organizations (IISO)
A for Web Design (WDS)
A for Computer Architecture (CARC)
B for Problem Solving and Programming. (PRSP)
C for Computing Maths (CMATHS)
Top 20% out of the entire Diploma.

For PRSP, 1 MORE MARK AND I GOT my 4TH As. DAMN IT. CMaths. get it ? -C-Maths. And i got a C for it. I’m slacking on PRSP and CMATHS alot this few days. I don’t understand JAVA at all.

4th in class. i think.