This Is Me

Everyone does dread it i guess. I forgot everything about Java. I hope we don’t need it for Object Oriented Programming and Higher Object Oriented Programming.

TIMETABLE IS SUCH A BITCH.

There, i said it.

Monday, Tuesday Wednesday and Friday starts at 9AM and Thursday starts at 11AM. The best part is that i end at 7PM on Wednesday and Thursday. Friday, 2 hours of Sociology and Psychology. Ohh My Effing God.

The thing that i hate about the new timetable is that there’s a lot of break slot. As crazy as it may sound, i prefer it to be like secondary where there’s a fix timing for break but hopefully longer. It’s like on some days i have 1 hour of break and then 2 hours of break later on and some days i have 3 hours break.

I wish that.

Going the school is like going to a masquerade ball.

masquerade |ˌmaskəˈrād|noun 

false show or pretense : his masquerade ended when he was arrested.

• the wearing of disguise : dressing up, role-playing, and masquerade.

• a masked ball.

verb [ intrans. ]

pretend to be someone one is not : a journalist masquerading as a man in distress.

• be disguised or passed off as something else : the idle gossip that masquerades as news in some local papers.

Okay, maybe not so much for the costume. I want the mask though. 

It’s because i want to hide the truth. I don’t want people to be judgmental over me.

Wow I’m sad.

Improve on CMaths but my IISO drop to C+. And i was really aiming for an A for Web Design.

I know myself well that for the IISO paper i was having difficulties trying to memorize those notes. And i always miss IISO lecture. Never did pay attention in IISO Tutorial or Lab sessions.

I don’t think I’m in the top 10%. Bet that their cGPU is 4.0, 3.9, 3.8 etc

Fudge lah.

Cats are adorable but they are annoying when they start vomiting in your room/bed.

And my file accidentally drop on top of that fucking shit.

The other day i went to Ivan’s house to do some web designing work. So yea i was walking alone to the 89 bus stop and i spotted this!

Fuck yeah! It’s an accident alright! Please ignore the white mist, it’s some fucker’s spirit who died at the accident scene. 

Anyways, i reach school early today. 4:30PM. CMath starts at 5PM.

1 notebook! 2 Screens! As you can see my jGRASP. Half on the each screen!

“It doesn’t matter if you can afford non living things when you can’t share it with anyone.”

Who is actually materialistic? I used to think that I’m materialistic but not anymore. Even though i desire numerous items, they’re not really what i need. I kind of told someone what I’m experiencing. I doubt anyone can relate to it.

Anyways, heard of “Your eyes tell me the truth.” ?

Why don’t we use coloured contact lens and masked that up! While we’re at that, put up a facade as well!

World of lies.

“Here, a glimpse of what is harsh.”

Have you ever gossip with someone? Or talk bad things about someone?

While you’re gossiping, does it ever come to your mind that this person is capable of doing such things to you too? Why wouldn’t that person criticize about you behind your back? If he or she hates you that is. 

And off course the above wouldn’t bother you if you always gossip with your best friend.

There is a prevention to the above events. We can always just suck up to everyone and pretend to be nice and play your cards well. There might be just some idiots who will turn their cards against you.

Here comes another issue, hypocritical.

I think there is 2 types of hypocrites. Just like 2 types of lies. There is a white lie and the bad lie. Well, the first type of hypocrite in my opinion is that being nice and not being too straightforward and harsh. You know being hypocrite to be nice to someone. Pretty similar to white lie.

On the other hand, there is the nasty hypocrites. Like betraying your friends or breaking the trust.

If you like to gossip and then be a hypocrite and be nice to everyone.

If you don’t like to gossip then be nasty to everyone. 

Is being hypocritical always a bad thing?

Subjective indeed. Words coming out from a 17 year old.

Isn’t it better to be like me? Just shut up and drive listen. No it isn’t. Another issue will arise from that. Am i trying too hard to achieve perfection?

Sometimes, I’m scared to speak up because what if i said the wrong things and insult? In the past, every time when i said something, i usually get a negative reply. From that, I’m scared to speak up. Do i think too much? I wonder if i usually blog like an adult, mature or it sounds like coming out from a 10 year old kid.

Nazri Chuckled.

I really do need a psychotherapist.

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Today, Ms Chiang decided to gave us back all the term test marks, grades and our banding.

B for Communication Skills (CMSK)
A for Internet and Information System in Organizations (IISO)
A for Web Design (WDS)
A for Computer Architecture (CARC)
B for Problem Solving and Programming. (PRSP)
C for Computing Maths (CMATHS)
Top 20% out of the entire Diploma.

For PRSP, 1 MORE MARK AND I GOT my 4TH As. DAMN IT. CMaths. get it ? -C-Maths. And i got a C for it. I’m slacking on PRSP and CMATHS alot this few days. I don’t understand JAVA at all.

4th in class. i think.