This Is Me

If I were to make a wild guess, I guess that majority of the people wouldn’t wish to be a part of National Service. I truly understand that but I also do perfectly understand why National Service is important for this country.

I didn’t had to wait long to be enlisted into National Service upon graduating. While I was still a student, I honestly worked really hard. Each day, I’d leave the campus at 9PM. I spend up to 12 hours a day in school during my final year. I was honestly pushing myself to graduate with a merit and hoping that I can get a place in a local university. My hard work did paid off. I graduated with a merit and I’m accepted into Nanyang Technological University to complete my Bachelor of Engineering in Computer Science with Business Minor. Of course I was beyond ecstatic.

I was on a roll, I was ready to conquer the next challenge in my education life. I was hungry for more knowledge. My hands were itching to code more applications. As crazy as it sounds, I was actually very excited to start university life. To this day, I am still very interested to start university and be a student again.

But no, I had to be enlisted into National Service. Currently right now, I’m a hospital medic. I went through 5 weeks of cramming my tiny brain with medical terms and procedures. Honestly, at one point of time I was thinking to myself, what the hell is this all about? I graduated with a Diploma in Information Technology WITH a Merit and now I’m studying all this medical terms. Seriously, what the hell? It was totally irrelevant to my area of specialization.

Right now, I feel that what I’ve been learning for three years in polytechnic is slowly slipping away. I’d imagine that by the time I start university, I’ll probably forget all the basics of computing. Looks like my efforts are in vain.

My point is that, I wish MINDEF would properly utilize “us” and post us to proper vocation based on what we are good in. Wouldn’t that be better?

Well, all I can do right now is just wish harder and suck my thumb. Life is never fair to begin with.

It’s that time of the year again!

Annoying music booming through the roof, endless wishing of each other a happy new year and the overhype countdown.

It will be absolutely hilarious if scientist can actually find real evidence that 2012 marks the end of the world and when 31st December 2011 arrive, will everyone still wish each other a happy new year?

In any case, I’m still not looking forward to a brand new year even after all these years. Well they say, habits are hard to break. I’d rather relive 2010. It’s not a bad year after all.

Yes I know that I have not been blogging. I’m not even bothered to explain why.

Looking at 2010, I do feel a little unsettled. I don’t think I did managed to accomplished a lot of things in this year. However, there are certain highlights in 2010 that is awesome.

One of it is that I am finally in my third and final year in Temasek Polytechnic, it has been quite a feat all these while. Being in third year, our two main modules were the final year project and the internship.

The final year project was a huge challenge for me to say the least. I have never in my life worked so hard and pushed myself so hard in school. However, I’m still halfhearted about it. If I had a chance to redo my entire final year project, I would definitely take that opportunity. I’ll talk about it some other time. In general, I wish my final year project was more ‘cool’ and futuristic.

Upon completing the final year project, the students were exiled to various company across Singapore and the world. I chose to stay in Singapore for my internship. I am currently being employed in A*STAR or also known as Agency for Science, Technology and Research. It’s been rather interesting. My internship ends somewhere in February.

That’s about it. I’m lazy to write.

PS: I think Ke$ha looks like a slut. What do you think?

With a blink of an eye, I’ve completed my first half of my second year in Temasek Polytechnic. Another blink and who knows I might be sitting in that barber chair and shaving my beautiful hair off in preparation for NS.

All is left is with our main exams and then it’s my final goodbye to my current classmates.

To be honest, I hate most of the people in my class. Well Hate is strong word. I actually categorized them into various categories. They are mainly, Hate, Dislike, Neutral, Exceptional. Now I don’t want to disclose such information onto a public platform. I don’t want any drama to happen. However, if you do want to know it, feel free to hit me up on MSN.

I’m still in disbelief that time actually flies very fast. Even though I said that like umpteen times.

Basically, today is our last day of school. In the morning, i was feeling lackadaisical and a little sick to the point that i could barf anytime.

I gathered up my determination and willpower to get up and get ready for school.

LIES.

Actually, ever since I started schooling at Temasek Polytechnic, I’ve NEVER and I mean NEVER receive a warning letter before. If I were to skip the french class again, I’ll be getting my first warning letter. The thought of breaking my record of not getting warning letters doesn’t seem to entice me that much.

It turns out only six people turned up for our class. We combined with another french class that only had two students. I’m gonna miss French dearly. It is one of my favorite subjects. It’s one of those class where by you actually enjoy learning it.

Nonetheless, CSAD in the afternoon was rather brief. It’s only then I realized that this is really the last day of school and the last time I’ll be seeing my classmates in my classroom.

IT Block Level 5 Labs got a renovation and they apparently got a room full of iMacs! I reckon it’s eMac, designed for use in educational institution.

Yes, the image quality is rather flattering. It’s the 17″ Screen, White.

It’s pretty old. New iMacs are silver, like mine! But still, MACS WILL CONQUER THE WORLD.

I was literally ventilating and i was standing super close to the door.

Computer Architecture Presentation went so bad. Really bad.

My group is the first to present. Shucks. And after we present i kinda slack at the back and didn’t pay attention. Thank god there’s no question and answer session.

I stumbled upon my words a lot of times. Public speaking simply ain’t my cup of tea.

Some people are so bitchy some people are so bad weathered. Some people enjoy seeing other’s misery. Which is totally retarded and sick. People like that should just fucking die.

And i absolutely abhor hooligans. Annoying immature brats. Thinking that they are so superior the fact that they are nothing because they do not bring about any good to the society. Egomaniacs. Fuckers. Banish them someone.

i LOVE wearing business attire. Makes me feel like an adult.

I was waiting for the Bus No. 5 at the bus stop somewhere around the SAFRA and i saw KarYee and Christina.

I didn’t really like had a chat with them because they went up of the double decker bus while i stayed down because i merely need to hang on for 2 stops. I should have gone up! Both of then are in TP. I saw Sophia the other day at TP’s Business Cafeteria. Amelia is in the child psychologist course. What about XinYi and MayChin?!

Christina reminds me of the times that i spent in the choir. I used to stand in the backrow with Christina, Shishan and Yiling i think. And we would like give our 110%? Really and we would try to sing loudly and christina is like great man! Motivational person! And we would always get drown by the other groups of ‘na na na’.

And KarYee! I remember secondary 2, she was a great artist and she always bring sweets to school! Ohh well time to move on. I get pretty emotional thinking about this but when i think about it again, who still does get emotional like this like me?

I bet everyone has move on and settle down into their new class in junior college, polytechnic or institute of technical education. I bet they’re having so much fun with their new classmates. 

I’m a pretty tensed up person. Every time i’m out of my comfort zone, i get so tensed up and i hate it. And i have no self confidence at all. Ohh wait, what am i suppose to be confident of? Nothing. I did something dumb today and i hate myself for doing it without thinking of the consequences. 

I don’t understand with the way people react. It is just odd and contradicts the observation that i’ve made.

A day of annoyance, despondent and euphoria.

May I start with annoyance first? It might get dirty here.
I’m so annoyed with Gordon.

You don’t even understand the  situation that I’m currently in. And there you go accusing me of ‘step emo’. It’s not funny.

I was in the MRT and this guy, his body odor was extreme. He sat beside me. I’m extremely unlucky. I wanted to take out the perfume in my bag and spray it into the air.

Direct School Admission(DSA). I want to apply for that. Junior College perhaps?I don’t know which junior college. I still remember a friend of mine asked me to go to Saint Andrews Junior College because the uniform is nice. Apply for choir but I fear they might push me to alto which I don’t want. I wish to stay in soprano. There is direct school admission to polytechnic as well.

Mdm Gill said we should just give DSA a try as there is nothing to lose. We can also reject the offer even if we’re chosen. I think that is what I read in the paper. Mdm Gill was interesting today during our class. They way she teach us moving around kinda hilarious. Overall Mdm Gill is a nice teacher however we drag going to her class as it is Social Studies. Social Studies is the worst subject ever.

Remember this? Looks familiar aye? 26 days has past even since our syf. Looking at this picture still make me feel sad. I still have not gotten over the fact that we got a bronze maybe?