I’m not dead.

I’ve been procrastinating on my school work.

Way to go Nazri!

I might be wrong but this is what i have noticed.

I have been very open about makeup. Yes i like makeup. Makeup is somewhat my hobby. Do i want to be a makeup artist? No i do not. It’s a hobby.

Other then that, I’m also open about me, wearing makeup. I don’t wear anything out of norm. All i wear is foundation and finishing dust and some mint color corrector to erase redness.

Do i wear eyeshadows?

No.

Do i wear eyeliner?

No. In any case, there’s plenty of guys wearing eyeliner also known as guyliner.

Do i wear any lip products?

Yes, Neutrogena’s lip balm because we practically sit hours in an air conditioning room and the air gets dry and my lips crack and bleed.

Do i wear feminine kind of clothing?

No.

Do i wear feminine colors?

No. I wear black, top to toe to school almost everyday.

Yes my behavior and liking in certain stuff might not be the same like the others. I don’t like sports. I don’t like listening to rock songs. I prefer Marie Digby or Katy Perry. I like makeup. Though there are some things that are somewhat boy-ish in nature. I like playing games. I like photography. I like technology related stuff pertaining to Apple Inc. That’s all that i can think of at the moment.

My point is that, I’m not some kind of a full blown transexual who totally dedicated to his(?)/her life to feminine stuff.

WHY IS THERE AN IDIOT WHO IS TREATING ME DIFFENTLY?

JUST BECAUSE I’M DIFFERENT?

FOR GOD’S SAKE, I’M PRETTY MUCH NORMAL.

Well that is debatable. My voice is naturally high. What do you expect when i was in Soprano for 4 years in secondary school? I might be gentle but i don’t walk with my hand in that feminine kind of way you know. I am quite soft i usually do not resort to violence.

Guess who is treating me diffrently, a teacher. Yes one of my teachers at school.

You might be wondering, UNBELIEVABLE. PERHAPS, YOU MISUNDERSTOOD THE SITUATION BECAUSE THE TEACHER DIDN’T GIVE YOU SOME LOVE AND DIDN’T ASK YOU STUFF LIKE “OHH NAZRI HOW IS YOUR WORK COMING ALONG?”

Fuck you and fuck that teacher very much. I know what i see.

Yes a teacher who is supposedly a role model for students. On a random sidenote, sometimes i feel like i’m going to school at an ITE instead of polytechnic. The attitude of the students disgust me to the bottomest pit of my stomach.

I am pretty much very mad. This is an unbeliavable. All i can think of at the moment is decapitating that teacher’s head.

I would gladly put the teacher’s name here but some other teacher know my blog and i don’t feel like i want to create a fiasco out of this like lastime with the Sherine Wong case.

Incase some of you don’t know, there was a teacher named Sherine Wong in my secondary school and i wrote that i don’t like her on my blog ONLY. No insults. Just a sentence that i don’t like her. She found my blog. Report my blog to the principal, disciplinary master, counsellor.

She thinks i’m a teenager filled with angst. *Roll eyes* Hence the counsellor. I didn’t get any punishment because i did nothing wrong.

//Insider’s Secret.

She got mad that i didn’t got punished and she went up to the principal asking for punishment for me but the principal can’t because as i mentioned before, i did NOTHING wrong. I merely wrote my opinion that i hate her.

Anyways, the entire school knew about the situation and i was in the limelight for a week or so.  They made me remove that blog entry and i was sent for counselling. That is the LOL part of it. I still have the that particular entry somewhere on my spare hard disk just that i don’t have a computer to hook it up. And the other ‘punishment’ was that, they made me sign a contract stating, I shall not write about my secondary school teachers anymore on my blog until i am graduated. YES THAT IS ANOTHER ‘LOL’ Part.

You see the drama i went through? *roll eyes*

After mugging in CMaths till 4AM, i was getting bored.

And i saw this,

i was like,

WHAT IS THAT?

Is it a SUPER NINJA POWER HEADBAND?

LOL!

Fudging retarded.

-OR-

CYCLOPS

LOL UTTER EMBARRASSMENT. 

Kindergarden graduation picture

Fudging dusty. That was taken using my N82. Clear right! >_> and then photoshop to make it look old. Dust is originally there LOL

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Har. Honestly, i love this effects a lot.

“It doesn’t matter if you can afford non living things when you can’t share it with anyone.”

Who is actually materialistic? I used to think that I’m materialistic but not anymore. Even though i desire numerous items, they’re not really what i need. I kind of told someone what I’m experiencing. I doubt anyone can relate to it.

Anyways, heard of “Your eyes tell me the truth.” ?

Why don’t we use coloured contact lens and masked that up! While we’re at that, put up a facade as well!

World of lies.

“Here, a glimpse of what is harsh.”

Have you ever gossip with someone? Or talk bad things about someone?

While you’re gossiping, does it ever come to your mind that this person is capable of doing such things to you too? Why wouldn’t that person criticize about you behind your back? If he or she hates you that is. 

And off course the above wouldn’t bother you if you always gossip with your best friend.

There is a prevention to the above events. We can always just suck up to everyone and pretend to be nice and play your cards well. There might be just some idiots who will turn their cards against you.

Here comes another issue, hypocritical.

I think there is 2 types of hypocrites. Just like 2 types of lies. There is a white lie and the bad lie. Well, the first type of hypocrite in my opinion is that being nice and not being too straightforward and harsh. You know being hypocrite to be nice to someone. Pretty similar to white lie.

On the other hand, there is the nasty hypocrites. Like betraying your friends or breaking the trust.

If you like to gossip and then be a hypocrite and be nice to everyone.

If you don’t like to gossip then be nasty to everyone. 

Is being hypocritical always a bad thing?

Subjective indeed. Words coming out from a 17 year old.

Isn’t it better to be like me? Just shut up and drive listen. No it isn’t. Another issue will arise from that. Am i trying too hard to achieve perfection?

Sometimes, I’m scared to speak up because what if i said the wrong things and insult? In the past, every time when i said something, i usually get a negative reply. From that, I’m scared to speak up. Do i think too much? I wonder if i usually blog like an adult, mature or it sounds like coming out from a 10 year old kid.

Nazri Chuckled.

I really do need a psychotherapist.

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Today, Ms Chiang decided to gave us back all the term test marks, grades and our banding.

B for Communication Skills (CMSK)
A for Internet and Information System in Organizations (IISO)
A for Web Design (WDS)
A for Computer Architecture (CARC)
B for Problem Solving and Programming. (PRSP)
C for Computing Maths (CMATHS)
Top 20% out of the entire Diploma.

For PRSP, 1 MORE MARK AND I GOT my 4TH As. DAMN IT. CMaths. get it ? -C-Maths. And i got a C for it. I’m slacking on PRSP and CMATHS alot this few days. I don’t understand JAVA at all.

4th in class. i think.