This Is Me

I was waiting for the Bus No. 5 at the bus stop somewhere around the SAFRA and i saw KarYee and Christina.

I didn’t really like had a chat with them because they went up of the double decker bus while i stayed down because i merely need to hang on for 2 stops. I should have gone up! Both of then are in TP. I saw Sophia the other day at TP’s Business Cafeteria. Amelia is in the child psychologist course. What about XinYi and MayChin?!

Christina reminds me of the times that i spent in the choir. I used to stand in the backrow with Christina, Shishan and Yiling i think. And we would like give our 110%? Really and we would try to sing loudly and christina is like great man! Motivational person! And we would always get drown by the other groups of ‘na na na’.

And KarYee! I remember secondary 2, she was a great artist and she always bring sweets to school! Ohh well time to move on. I get pretty emotional thinking about this but when i think about it again, who still does get emotional like this like me?

I bet everyone has move on and settle down into their new class in junior college, polytechnic or institute of technical education. I bet they’re having so much fun with their new classmates. 

I’m a pretty tensed up person. Every time i’m out of my comfort zone, i get so tensed up and i hate it. And i have no self confidence at all. Ohh wait, what am i suppose to be confident of? Nothing. I did something dumb today and i hate myself for doing it without thinking of the consequences. 

I don’t understand with the way people react. It is just odd and contradicts the observation that i’ve made.

Submitted DPA.
First choice, Aerospace Technology in NP
Second choice, Aeronautical Engineering in SP
Third choice, BLANK =/ I wanted child psychology in NP but my sister thinks I’m joking.
I hope I’m chosen.

I don’t have much time left:(

She cried in the middle of the night thinking about you.

There she goes, giving a strong signal yet you drowned yourself in your own work, ignoring her. Pushing her aside. She stood there waiting for you.

She hoped you know she really hope so. She miss you like a child misses their blanket. You broke her over and over again. She walked that boulevard of broken dreams alone. How worthy is she for you?

Some things are better to remain unspoken. It seems like you didn’t care. You left her in such a broken state. The messages just stopped coming. You totally forgot about the time you spend with her.

She recalled, you said ‘I just want to be with you’ Broken with empty promises. She looked in the mirror and see your face. Reflection she will soon forget. She doesn’t want to run away. She just needs you. If its wrong to love you, her heart just won’t let her be right. She’s drown in you and she won’t pull through without you by her side.

She can’t go on living in this forsaken memories. When you left, she lost a part of her. Pictures frozen in time. You’re fading away.

She has been longing for you. You wasn’t there when she needed you.

You walk past her,paying no attention to her. Pretending that nothing happen when something did happen between us.

An unspoken romance.