This Is Me

I wasn’t feeling quite like myself today. I lost the motivation. 

I felt like a fuck less about it.

And Nicholas had to say, Ehh Nazri, you use foundation?-.- Infront of the entire class.

SO WHAT! I didn’t answer but it was pretty embarrassing.

21st century. Metrosexuality. People should stop being so stereotypical.

Things to do: 

1.  Complete my Web Design project(30%)
2.  Study for PRSP Lab test(0%)
3.  Memorise shitloads of JAVA codes(0%)
4.  Study for CARC Lab Test?(0%)
5.  Communication Skills Test 2 coming up(0%().
6.  Building of model for Internet and Information System in Organisations. (IISO)(0%)
7.  IISO PRESENTATION. Freakin’ Hell!(0%)
8. JAVA ASSIGNMENT 2. Which I have yet to start and I heard countless people telling me it’s difficult.
9. WDS Presentation(0%)

P.S.

I so LOLed reading syafiq’s tag! ._.

And I’ve made a new judgement on human being’s attitude. I figured that a human being will only react strongly and emotionally if the person, who has connection with the inner radius, involve has cause that incident to happened.

However, if that person has no inner radius, human beings should be fine and alive and kicking to move on.

People are so down right fucking rude nowadays. What the fuck happened to Moral Education. Why the fuck did we learn Moral Education ever since we’re primary one till secondary four. Fucking fucktards. And yes I’m pissed.

Computer Architecture Presentation went so bad. Really bad.

My group is the first to present. Shucks. And after we present i kinda slack at the back and didn’t pay attention. Thank god there’s no question and answer session.

I stumbled upon my words a lot of times. Public speaking simply ain’t my cup of tea.

Some people are so bitchy some people are so bad weathered. Some people enjoy seeing other’s misery. Which is totally retarded and sick. People like that should just fucking die.

And i absolutely abhor hooligans. Annoying immature brats. Thinking that they are so superior the fact that they are nothing because they do not bring about any good to the society. Egomaniacs. Fuckers. Banish them someone.

i LOVE wearing business attire. Makes me feel like an adult.

“It doesn’t matter if you can afford non living things when you can’t share it with anyone.”

Who is actually materialistic? I used to think that I’m materialistic but not anymore. Even though i desire numerous items, they’re not really what i need. I kind of told someone what I’m experiencing. I doubt anyone can relate to it.

Anyways, heard of “Your eyes tell me the truth.” ?

Why don’t we use coloured contact lens and masked that up! While we’re at that, put up a facade as well!

World of lies.

“Here, a glimpse of what is harsh.”

Have you ever gossip with someone? Or talk bad things about someone?

While you’re gossiping, does it ever come to your mind that this person is capable of doing such things to you too? Why wouldn’t that person criticize about you behind your back? If he or she hates you that is. 

And off course the above wouldn’t bother you if you always gossip with your best friend.

There is a prevention to the above events. We can always just suck up to everyone and pretend to be nice and play your cards well. There might be just some idiots who will turn their cards against you.

Here comes another issue, hypocritical.

I think there is 2 types of hypocrites. Just like 2 types of lies. There is a white lie and the bad lie. Well, the first type of hypocrite in my opinion is that being nice and not being too straightforward and harsh. You know being hypocrite to be nice to someone. Pretty similar to white lie.

On the other hand, there is the nasty hypocrites. Like betraying your friends or breaking the trust.

If you like to gossip and then be a hypocrite and be nice to everyone.

If you don’t like to gossip then be nasty to everyone. 

Is being hypocritical always a bad thing?

Subjective indeed. Words coming out from a 17 year old.

Isn’t it better to be like me? Just shut up and drive listen. No it isn’t. Another issue will arise from that. Am i trying too hard to achieve perfection?

Sometimes, I’m scared to speak up because what if i said the wrong things and insult? In the past, every time when i said something, i usually get a negative reply. From that, I’m scared to speak up. Do i think too much? I wonder if i usually blog like an adult, mature or it sounds like coming out from a 10 year old kid.

Nazri Chuckled.

I really do need a psychotherapist.

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Today, Ms Chiang decided to gave us back all the term test marks, grades and our banding.

B for Communication Skills (CMSK)
A for Internet and Information System in Organizations (IISO)
A for Web Design (WDS)
A for Computer Architecture (CARC)
B for Problem Solving and Programming. (PRSP)
C for Computing Maths (CMATHS)
Top 20% out of the entire Diploma.

For PRSP, 1 MORE MARK AND I GOT my 4TH As. DAMN IT. CMaths. get it ? -C-Maths. And i got a C for it. I’m slacking on PRSP and CMATHS alot this few days. I don’t understand JAVA at all.

4th in class. i think.