I think I am ready to move on. To move on and feel better.

I have to admit, I was always one of those kids that are emo. Dressing in black, long hair covering one eye, etc etc. It’s not all for show. There was a reason behind it.

But I think I am ready for change, to be optimistic, to look at life from a different perspective. My blog title had always been “Love, Hardship and Betrayal”. I loved it. I can’t explain my profound admiration for it. It holds such great ‘feeling’ for lack of better words. It’s time to change the blog title as well.

As for the URL, unspokenromance.com, I created this blog back in 2007 when I was 16 years old. The story behind it was that, back then, I used to have a crush on someone. Thus, that’s how the URL came about. I’m so over it. The URL no longer holds any meaning for me.

Is this what it’s like entering in adulthood?

I have always ponder if there is a flaw with Singapore’s education system. Do you think we study too much and did not have ample chance to apply what we have learn to real life settings? That is how I feel.

I had an opportunity lately to apply knowledge I picked up in school into real life settings. Recently, a good friend of mine that goes by the name of Kamelia, hey kamelia! a shout for you, you can check her online portfolio here and her blog here and her twitter here and her tumblr here. I’ll stop, I guess there’s no need to post her facebook profile or myspace profile or her address hah!

As I was saying, we decided to open a little business venture. Hey, don’t look down on us, everyone start small somewhere. I’ll release more information about this when we have finalized things. I’m glad I’m doing something useful in my life at this age.

Since I’m in Information Technology, I learn about computers including managing of databases. I managed to apply what I learned in school into this little business venture by drawing the database schema, normalized it into it’s third form and initialized it. Basically, I created a database which will store our customer and their order’s information.

The database is hosted off a server. I’m accessing it via HeidiSQL. In my opinion, this is better than keeping our records in a Microsoft Excel document and emailing each other to keep ourselves updated.

Hence, I feel happy that I did learn something useful after all in school.

On a side note, I am elated that I finally managed to upgrade my Macbook and my iMac to the lastest installment of the Mac OS X. Mac OS X Snow Leopard, 10.6.X and being a makeup enthusiast myself, I finally managed to grab my first makeup item from the famous MAC Cosmetics.

School has been amazing. I prefer my new class so much more. Lastly, I finally managed to give my blog a much needed new look!

What made you happy today?

If you’ve been on wikipedia lately, you know that they are asking for donations.

I saw this banner on wikipedia,

click to enlarge!

Trying to capture people’s heart and forcing them to donate.

Cunning.

They are only accepting donations $1 and above. They rejected my $0.50.

Dear Mohamed Nazri,

Thank you for your gift of USD 1.00 to the Wikimedia Foundation,received on December 5, 2009.

Your donation celebrates everything Wikipedia stands for: the power of information, freedom, sharing, learning and discovery. Thank you so much for helping keep Wikipedia freely available for its 330 million readers around the world.

Many people love Wikipedia, but surprisingly few know it’s run by a non-profit. Please help us spread the word, by forwarding this e-mail to a few of your friends.

If you have questions about your donation, please send a message to donate@wikimedia.org. To learn more about the Wikimedia Foundation, visit our blog at http://blog.wikimedia.org/ or our website at http://wikimediafoundation.org/. Or, follow us at http://twitter.com/wikimedia http://identi.ca//wikimedia, or http://bit.ly/wikiFacebook.

And again, thank you. I’m really, really happy to have your help.

Sincerely Yours,

Sue Gardner
Executive Director, Wikimedia Foundation

Evidence that I really DID donated.

I smiled genuinely for the first time in months. That made me happy.

What made you happy today?

Mr Giuliano did commented and said excellent!

I suspect i did pretty bad. I wasn’t that confident with my speech and i did choked up on the longest line.

I’m gonna miss french a lot. One of my favorite subjects.

Now that is over, all is left with our CMSK brochure.

How are you guys digging my new blog theme? I totally adore it. Though i find the banner at the top a tad old, i need something new and french fresh.

//Update

I’m so loving my new blog theme and the quick banner i whip up.

I have been very open about makeup. Yes i like makeup. Makeup is somewhat my hobby. Do i want to be a makeup artist? No i do not. It’s a hobby.

Other then that, I’m also open about me, wearing makeup. I don’t wear anything out of norm. All i wear is foundation and finishing dust and some mint color corrector to erase redness.

Do i wear eyeshadows?

No.

Do i wear eyeliner?

No. In any case, there’s plenty of guys wearing eyeliner also known as guyliner.

Do i wear any lip products?

Yes, Neutrogena’s lip balm because we practically sit hours in an air conditioning room and the air gets dry and my lips crack and bleed.

Do i wear feminine kind of clothing?

No.

Do i wear feminine colors?

No. I wear black, top to toe to school almost everyday.

Yes my behavior and liking in certain stuff might not be the same like the others. I don’t like sports. I don’t like listening to rock songs. I prefer Marie Digby or Katy Perry. I like makeup. Though there are some things that are somewhat boy-ish in nature. I like playing games. I like photography. I like technology related stuff pertaining to Apple Inc. That’s all that i can think of at the moment.

My point is that, I’m not some kind of a full blown transexual who totally dedicated to his(?)/her life to feminine stuff.

WHY IS THERE AN IDIOT WHO IS TREATING ME DIFFENTLY?

JUST BECAUSE I’M DIFFERENT?

FOR GOD’S SAKE, I’M PRETTY MUCH NORMAL.

Well that is debatable. My voice is naturally high. What do you expect when i was in Soprano for 4 years in secondary school? I might be gentle but i don’t walk with my hand in that feminine kind of way you know. I am quite soft i usually do not resort to violence.

Guess who is treating me diffrently, a teacher. Yes one of my teachers at school.

You might be wondering, UNBELIEVABLE. PERHAPS, YOU MISUNDERSTOOD THE SITUATION BECAUSE THE TEACHER DIDN’T GIVE YOU SOME LOVE AND DIDN’T ASK YOU STUFF LIKE “OHH NAZRI HOW IS YOUR WORK COMING ALONG?”

Fuck you and fuck that teacher very much. I know what i see.

Yes a teacher who is supposedly a role model for students. On a random sidenote, sometimes i feel like i’m going to school at an ITE instead of polytechnic. The attitude of the students disgust me to the bottomest pit of my stomach.

I am pretty much very mad. This is an unbeliavable. All i can think of at the moment is decapitating that teacher’s head.

I would gladly put the teacher’s name here but some other teacher know my blog and i don’t feel like i want to create a fiasco out of this like lastime with the Sherine Wong case.

Incase some of you don’t know, there was a teacher named Sherine Wong in my secondary school and i wrote that i don’t like her on my blog ONLY. No insults. Just a sentence that i don’t like her. She found my blog. Report my blog to the principal, disciplinary master, counsellor.

She thinks i’m a teenager filled with angst. *Roll eyes* Hence the counsellor. I didn’t get any punishment because i did nothing wrong.

//Insider’s Secret.

She got mad that i didn’t got punished and she went up to the principal asking for punishment for me but the principal can’t because as i mentioned before, i did NOTHING wrong. I merely wrote my opinion that i hate her.

Anyways, the entire school knew about the situation and i was in the limelight for a week or so.  They made me remove that blog entry and i was sent for counselling. That is the LOL part of it. I still have the that particular entry somewhere on my spare hard disk just that i don’t have a computer to hook it up. And the other ‘punishment’ was that, they made me sign a contract stating, I shall not write about my secondary school teachers anymore on my blog until i am graduated. YES THAT IS ANOTHER ‘LOL’ Part.

You see the drama i went through? *roll eyes*

I don’t remember it unless i check my archives.

I was pretty bored the other time and surfing redundant things online. I decided to login to my old account on blogger. Ohh my god, my old blog is still there! I thought it was gone because the other time i accidentally deleted it.

I had 2 blogs apparently, one consisting a timeframe from April 2005 till June 2006 and the other August to September 2006. Evidently, there’s a big gap between September 2006 and April 2007, which is the start of this blog. Mind you i had a blog for a long time but my previous web hosting was totally unreliable and i practically lost my blog for like 4 times which explains the missing timeframe.

My first blog post is so embarrassing and my first blog was pretty much private. It has all the insults about the people i don’t really like. 

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

exam..

haiz.. just created a new blog to let things out haiz so stress exam is just around the corner about2 or 3 weeks left i guess and i cant play computer =(! but now im sneaking to play haha anyway im so bored lucky DNT no need to take exam cuz i hate DNT so boring haiz …. so sad … XXXX is ingoring me i guess i dunno but she haven talk to me for so long when i talk to her she like neva reply me but i ask my friend to ask her whether is she ignoring me but she said XXX is not but i like her she is a very nice girl. Anyway i hear syafiq said that they gonna recruit new councellor i wish i can be one but i dun think so… and i dunno wheather to be one either but my god sis . gina said dun be im so confused i dunno anyway

Fallen Angel Trademark peace outz

flew into your heart at [5:22 PM]

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA. I can’t stop laughing. Okay, back then i liked this girl. LOL! Fucking stupid! Actually i edited some parts out because it was fucking mushy and i didn’t know that i was capable for typing disgusting stuff like that.

Fallen Angel Fallen Angel. That was my so-called nickname. I had it for like 2 years and wherever i am, i’ll vandalize, Fallen Angel.

I think that most of our first post are weird and awkward and they typically are like, 

Hello blog

i am XXX and i am studying at XXX 

okay bye bye blog i will blog next timez.

The first post is absolutely crucial because it sets the tone of the blog but of course it doesn’t matter if you’re just blogging for personal usage.

Your first post should content:

1. An introduction. When there’s an introduction, people tend to believe you. That means when you gain trust to your readers, they’ll be able to take credibility to your words.

2. Your focus. Why is the focus of the blog? Business? Sports? Photography? This will also helps you to generate a better income for Googles Adsense. Moreover, with a proper topic instead of a general topic, you’ll be able to focus on the things you wish to achieve on your blog.

3. Comments. It is important to let your readers engage in with you. It is better to imagine that you’re in a room having a conversation with your readers instead of other situation. Therefore, it is wise to leave your email or a feedback page. They can even send you ways to improve your blog.

4. Purpose. This is the most important of all. Your intentions will be spilled out. If you’re gonna blog for the sake of blogging then i doubt you’ll succeed.

I had an interesting ‘talk’ with someone this afternoon whom I shall not name for several reasons. By the way, it is just a conversation and not a scolding session. And if YOU (you should know whom I’m referring too) think that it is a scolding session, too bad that it’s not.

I was walking back home and I have to pass through East Point to get to the other side. At the entrance of the East Point there was this group of people standing, obviously being an obstruction to the entrance. Isn’t it obvious that you’re blocking the way. There was about seven people crowding at the entrance. I was already filled with intense anger; looking at that simply makes me rage even more.

Nevertheless, in the previous post below I did say that I’m 16. I also mentioned that we are naïve people since we are only 16 and we don’t really have much experience. In case you don’t know, that part was meant to be sarcastic which means that I’m not that naïve, I m not that stupid, I’m not that oblivious.

At my blog’s admin page, I have this feature (this is why I love WordPress it’s a blog software I’m currently using you should give it a try) that enables me to see who recently visited my blog, the referrers that visited my blog, search engine terms they have used to find my blog and many more. Referrers are people that clicked links from other pages to get to my blog. One of them is myedumail.moe.edu.sg

And all this while you thought I was that naïve? I know that you put my blog link into the MOE email and send it to several staff members of the school. Yesterday, I had 4 referrers from myedumail.moe.edu.sg and 4 referrers today. Interesting aye? My blog is gaining recognition.

Yesterday a total of 71 unique visitors visit my blog. Highest record! Yesterday I already printed out all the documents. The documents were all the post that I have made. I printed it because I can show it to whoever is interested because I know I will be called out just as I expected. I printed it out so that I have hard copy evidence to show that I’m safe and I’m innocent. It’s merely thoughts that are being typed out. No insults nothing to that extent. I’m such a goody person.

Someone IMed me while I was typing this.. A says she read my blog and said very good and A likes it. So what can you deduce from this comment given by a friend of me? It is for me to know and for you to find out. Names have been change to protect the privacy of my friends. They are innocent; I don’t wish to bring them into trouble.

Probably I’m going to be sent to the counselor about this. It is not that bad. I can vent out all the anger and all the stuff. I’m looking forward.

By the way, don’t think you’re getting the last laugh.

I was venting out my anger to a friend of mine with the name of Kevin.

kevin:. says:
burn her on the stick!

I find it hilarious

For all my dearest wonderful readers please do not assume that this post is referring to ‘ms sherine wong’ I didn’t say that this post is dedicated to her. Well, you don’t really have supporting evidence to point out this post is about her. So, making wrong assumptions are bad. It might cause a dispute. Haven’t you ever heard that assumptions aren’t always correct?

If you really want to know, it is for me to know and for you to find out.

To my nice Discipline Master, I just need a place to vent out my anger okay?

A lot of things happened while my blog was down. Thank god now its up with a new domain, unspokenromance.com I absolutely love it! I brainstormed for about 4 hours to create that domain name. 

There are 2 practices left until SYF judging ceremony. I’m not really nervous or maybe i am nervous. I can’t tell, I’m being retarded right now. I need time to get over the fact that my blog entries are gone. 

Lots of things happened but i don’t want to say everything in a single post, the post will be too long.

2 weeks to mid year exams. What’s next?