This Is Me

Just ordered $70 worth of item from them!

Not including shipping fees which will be a tad expensive bringing it close or maybe over $100.

I share a room with my sister, makes me sick to think that we’re actually related. There is plans for rebuilding the fourth room and it’ll be my room. Most of the time, the bitch also known as the whore I’m sharing my room with is always inconsiderate, stupid to the max!

Sometimes Every night, if i have school the next day and i have to wake up at 6AM, she’ll will be watching some stupid random korean videos and with the volume turned up super high.

Is that fair? Obviously not. How am i suppose to sleep with that random asian moaning in the background?

So yesterday i was about to go to bed and she was marking some papers, i purposely turned off the lights and then went to lie down on my bed. She walked up to the light switch and turned it on. I got up and went to light switch and smash the switch and the lights turned off.

TAKE THAT BITCH! HOW ARE YOU GONNA TURN IT BACK ON NOW?

+100000 Points to my Ego!

Now she’ll be living in darkness till my father fix that.

Bitch.

No I won’t be affected because I’m usually sitting at the other corner of the living room where the fourth room is suppose to be but the walls separating to the living room has been broken down to create a larger space. My mum said she will rebuild the wall and it’s gonna be glass! AWESOME!

And then i suddenly woke up early in the morning and i heard the bitch having conversation with my mother.

She said something like i went to kick bla bla bla.

And i said while still facing the wall and they were still thinking i was sleeping.

“Stop lying. I didn’t kick… You stupid.”

LOL.

I have already prepare my rebuttal when my mother is gonna nag at me later in the afternoon i presumed.

I’m gonna make her speechless when i present it.

Hopefully another +500 points to my Ego!

As if no one know that.

Dreamspark is the most shittiest website that I’ve tried downloading from.

What the fuck are they doing, trying to exploit students by giving substandard service.

It took me like 7 hours to download Microsoft Visual Studio Professional 2008 and it ended up being corrupted. And i download it again, CORRUPTED AGAIN.

Fuck Microsoft.

I downloaded a trial version of VS from their main version and speeds up to 1.5MBps and it only took me 30 minutes.

And apparently the Product Key given by Dreamspark doesn’t work with it!

TOTALLY IDIOTIC.

I’m just gonna find some random Product Key online and use it.

And so i bought a prepaid card this morning before i head on to school for $8 with a value of $10.

At 5PM $3 left.

At 7:35 I couldn’t SMS/Call anyone anymore.
And i went to buy $20 card to top up.

If one day, I’m using $10. 1 Month, $300?

INSANITY MOBILE USAGE.

Time 8:30AM

I’m already in school and apparently panicking! The thought of lecture room filled to the brim really creeps me out! I rushed to the toilet and straight into the cubicle!

Hyperventilating…

Thank god there was no shit smell because i might just swear out loud.

I think I’m going to have problems with OOAD. It wants us to think out of the box and i hate doing that i prefer something more procedural.

CMSK4 Assignment is out! And we’re suppose to submit the draft next week.

It’s totally.. WTF.

Unlike secondary school, usually the first week there’s nothing to much to do.

AND, I haven’t sleep the entire night since Sunday night, i couldn’t sleep! A tad tired. And I got french as my CDS!

Okay, I’m gonna practice my french so i wouldn’t have problems adapting it. Learning a new language isn’t easy after all. At night, time for E Math. Yes I’m retaking my O levels, English and E Math for fun though but i didn’t expect that the fees cost $200+

Results are got announced today and i just made the cut. Top 10% scorers are 3.57 cGPA and above and i got exactly 3.57! I don’t know if i should be happy because i already did mentally prepared not to get it.

Anyways, holiday was very fun. Reality doesn’t set in and i could be free and literally be happy. Now that school is starting it suck. Not that i hate school. More like reality sets in and i have to shift my focus on something else. 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me? I’m nervous for school. New subject new challenges and that previous semester is gonna be nothing compared to what is coming. I hope i can still do well.

New people? Well, I’m not that close to my classmates so i guess it will be like new people.

And i really hope there isn’t a lot of empty slot in between for the new timetable. 

I am really really nervous for the upcoming semester.

I need to get in touch with reality and stop living life like there’s no worry.

I have a huge problem with this.

I can’t stop thinking what other people are thinking about me and the possible thoughts of what they’re thinking keeps recurring in my head. And i can’t stop thinking like that. Countless people have told me not to care about people.

But it’s not that easy. Besides why do people should even bother looking at me? I’m just some random non factor person. Precisely! But i still can’t stop thinking what people are thinking about me.

That is why sometimes i really wish i could simply vanish or cease to exist. That is why i am avoiding people i guess. But it’s not that bad when I’m out with someone i know.

I don’t like it when people acknowledge my existence. It makes me nervous(or uncomfortable?) thinking about what they are thinking.

It’s like.. I CAN’T BE MYSELF. I feel so RESTRICTED by the boundaries of social norm. No actually by the boundaries of my own poisonous thoughts.

It’s not possibly obsessive compulsive disorder right? Doubtful.

Am i crazy?

He didn’t die he’s alive people. There’s no need to be so dramatic. His helmet suffered a ton of damage such as scratches and broken pieces

And a day or two ago I received an email about semester briefing. It seems like school is gonna start soon again about 19 days left how sweet. I’m dreading it.

And I can’t wait to be 18 to get my credit card.

I don’t want school!!