This Is Me

Back to the freakin’ drawing board.

My third network design being thrashed out after umpteen times of attempt.

It seems like it didn’t fit in the requirements.

Data Communications & Networking!

Time is so running out.

Wouldn’t adding two routers increase the complexity of IP calculation?! What about the subnet and all the wiring being entwine?!

I ABSOLUTELY ABHOR THIS SUBJECT.

But i really need to do well and maintain top 10% and hopefully get into the director’s list or getting into a very good university. 

Stupid assignment constitute 30% of the final grade!

I’m such a weakling.

Why did i confessed it so easily.

All i could do was stare at the circular pattern on the side of the lecture theatre and making mental notes of it and trying to make sense of the vandalized wall.

And the shortness of breathe starts to creep in. Apparently, those patterns isn’t drifting my mind far enough! The haziness prevail.

All i wanted to do was step out of the lecture theatre and run away. But that’ll make my attendance invalid for the lecture.

I’m sorry everyone.

An act of impulse i supposed.

It’s not hard to guess.

YES LOL WHAT THE FUDGE! IT’S A HORRIBLE SHADE OF ORANGE.

AND TO MAKE IT WORSE, DIFFERENT AREA HAS DIFFERENT INTENSITY OF ORAGENESS.

GOD, IT”S SO HORRIBLE..

LOL!

And the best part is i’m not even panicking. All i’ve been doing is staring at the mirror and laughing at myself. It’s all because i was feeling bored and then used my copper hair color enhancer cream.

From my beautiful medium golden blonde to..

To a somewhat ugly strawberry blonde.

HAHA.

Anyway, the picture does no justice. It’s 100x horrible in real life.

This entire week was hellish so to speak!

There’s 3 tests and 3 project submission!

And every night, i had roughly about four hours of sleep.

Deprivation of sleep can lead to falling sick, i’ve been popping two vitamin c pills everyday. If i can take more, i don’t mind! But the bottle say, 1-2 tablets after meal.

I can’t afford to fall sick! I still need to practice presenting for Psychology and Sociology analysis!

And i barely started on DCNK yet.

At least, i have a long weekend. But i can’t afford to use one entire day for recreational purposes.

3 Tests

3 Project submission

DO YOU HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO TOUCH PHYSICAL KEYPADS ON A PHONE?

At least I’m able to SMS blindly.

I’m so tempted just to change into N82 for fun.

I managed to use it for only 4 months before changing to iPhone 3G.

Hhm. I can’t remember if i traded in my N73 or it’s somewhere. It’s like the predecessor of N82.

It’s been days with the constant flood in my eyes.

I’ve been telling myself, be in denial and make believe that everything is alright.

But at the back of my head, i do know that trying to make everything alright in reality is beyond achievable. How foolish i am to even think about it to calm myself down. That thought really breaks me.

I know exactly what is happening.

I know what is the solution.

But what is the sacrifice and obligation for it to end?

First post of the year 2009?

Fudge it. I hate new year. I’d rather stay inside my psychiatric ward.

I wanna show off something.

My blog what. I can do whatever i want.

Ohh fudge! I hate talking like that.

I AM SUPER AWESOMENESS.

I managed clinch the bottom 90% title among 138 students in my diploma.  

Isn’t it cool? I know it is!

That means top 10% idiots. LOL I’m second place in my class. I’m in the tenth place across the entire diploma.

Awesome right. I am extremely elated! Pardon me for my rudeness.

And it’s the highest I’ve managed to get score for now. Hopefully I’m able to maintain it but i doubt. Top 10% is difficult I’ve been trying to achieve it ever since being admitted into this school.

The best part is that i studied last minute. I know. What the fudge right! Hopefully for the main exam, I’ll make full use of the entire study week.. Unlike the previous exam, out of 7 days, only 2 of the days was utilized for studying. (and still managed to get top 30%. not bad not bad)

The academic year is ending soon. An impending doom is awaiting. It’s the time when all of the assignments are due.

Object oriented programming, Higher object oriented programming, Data communication and networking, Psychology, Sociology, Information literacy for effective communication.

That’s about it.

But.. no math essay? I think writing a math essay will be super extraordinary and awesome. Maybe writing about the relationships with formulas.

And last thing,

OH MY FUDGING GOD, PSYCHOLOGY TUTORIAL WAS THE WEIRDEST THING EVER.

Our tutorial topic was about personality and they made us take some online unreliable MBTI personality test. During the tutorial class, Mr Francis Ngau, our new tutor, grouped us according to the personality.

So naturally, Me, being ever quiet, angelical, helpful, kind, got grouped into the group that was the ‘quiet’ type.

We had a task to do, which is to plan a academic year end party. Every other group has started but for our group, no one talked to each other, no one started writing on the big paper.

And Mr Francis was like …. he has nothing to say and he was always prompting us to write something.

Then there was this guy who joined our group because he was previously in a wrong group and he was really really talkative. And then this girl beside me was like,

“this guy confirm wrong group”

LOL.

Which he is when we saw his MBTI. But whatever.

And then during presentation, there’s 3 groups. Based on the personality, the first group’s planning will be very abstract which is, and the second group’s planning will be very detailed which is as well when Mr Francis showed us their paper. And our group, the third group is supposed to be … the ‘feeling’ type of people that means we only care about people and bling bling.

Anyways, because our group’s paper was crap, Mr Francis decided to ditch us and use the ‘feeling’ group’s work from his previous class. And he said that, our group also like bling bling and high end stuff

HAHAH

I did proposed the idea of ballroom and having a masquerade ball and massacre everybody at 12AM. His other class proposed having a ball too.

That means, the personality test is somewhat true?
I always thought it’s bogus and gimmicky.

I doubt anyone understand what the fudge i ranted about.

Circus by Britney Spears