This Is Me

Why can’t i be filthy rich HUH?

Tell me why!

Argh. So many things i desire.. those that cost a lot and some simply money can’t buy them at all!

I feel like buying gray contact lens and go to school using it ^_^ I don’t know if i should try getting green instead. I’ve always been using gray.

I want a hair straightener to do my fringe. I know you will be like LOL WTF WHY DO YOU NEED IT. Meh sometimes my fringe a bit weird and i’ve no idea how to flat-en it.

I want an iPod Nano>.>

I want a grand piano and at home and play Canon In D everyday.

Hmm and other stuff *cough* 

HEY STUPID, SUPPOSE TO STUDY PRSP NOW. WHAT SHIT BLOGGING?

LOL. SICKO

CUTE RIGHT? ~_~

LOL! You and your emo-ness-_-

Its all about repetition.

Thanks to me for your little fantasy.

Currently, i’m in diploma in information technology. I have no interest in this course SERIOUSLY. Why am i in this course? Its because of my dumbfuck parents forcing me to take it.

I’ve only 3 ambitions. A researcher, a conductor and a pilot.

Pilot ? HAHA Funny. Wish Harder. 

Conductor, music school god damn expensive. Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts. And parents didn’t allow me to study such things

Researcher is like finding cures for diseases and stuff like that. Like the Diploma in Biotechnology. Parents don’t allow.

COME ON I HATE MY PARENTS.

They only allow me IT, Business and Engineering.

And this is why i’m stuck in IT and feel like dropping out and take Diploma in Biotechnology.

But i don’t wanna regret dropping out. Got to admit that my current class is nice>.< And i heard that finding a job is difficult with diploma in biotechnology. I don’t know what to do.

I feel like crying. i know its lame-.- i don’t know what to do…

And so its my birthday today and i’m 17.

Well i did had present early from my parents and its the macbook. And i had this adidas white sweater which i wore once to school and it cost $272 its a gift from my sister. My family plans to eat out to some fancy hotel on the weekends as everyone is busy during the weekdays.

The day was great. I didn’t want it to end seriously. It is not because of the gifts. It is something more than that. I really hope time can freeze now. It is the answer to the ‘thats why we cry’. And tomorrow… everything will be back to normal. How exciting *shrug*.(sarcasm) I really enjoy it. Now i’m gonna be sad.

And i have a fucker like Nabil Elbaba telling me on msn, who cares about your birthday. fuck you.

Just the same as last year, a list. Thanks People =) <3

• Nurul
• Shi Shan
• Sean
• Yuen Siang
• Alex
• Farhana
• Denise
• Jun Yuan
• Yuan Jie
• Kenneth
• Nicholas
• C190
• Jeremy
• Xavius
• Thomas
• Ngoc
• Si Wei
• Jingle
• Phyllis
• Tian Seng
• Saadah
• Jia Bao
• Cheryl
• Marvin
• Jeremy
• Yvonne
• Theodore

The list grew but.. what goes around comes around. I’m sorry okay for not wishing you on your birthday its because i really forgot it. I shouldn’t be too upset.

Do i deserve a smile?

*Sigh*

School. Beginning to hate it. There’s a lot of project and i’m procrastinating. I deserve a slap.

Makes me wanna cry from this and also there is other factor contributing to this which i don’t wanna write because its rather personal.

Anyways, last saturday i tried out the archery trials and it didn’t went so well. We had to run run and run to warm up and i have asthma so they said they could hear me breathing very loudly for some reason and i stopped while the rest continue to run. And then while i was waiting for my turn to use the bow. I puke/throw up/vomit. Not a very good impression.

Because of that i doubt i’ll be getting into archery. Disappointing but i had to pay $2 to for the trial fee. Doesn’t make sense. Whatever. So they said they’ll call me but i highly doubt i’ll get in so now i’m considering if i should try joining bowling or TP Choir. As far as i know, Serene and Hazel is in TP Choir. People i know. Its bad. Seriously. Don’t really wanna elaborate on this. 

Why. i wonder why.

thats why we cry

LOL!
I feel like crying.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU.
I’m sick and tired of this limitations.