This Is Me

O levels are over but.. i’m blogging lesser? that sentence sounds wrong. Bleah, i’ve been busy enjoying myself till i forget to blog.

Have you guys listened to Apologise? Timbaland Ft One Republic. I think it’s kinda old i heard it before but i don’t really like it until recently. The song is like so sad. Makes me wanna cry =P Seriously.

Today is the 30th november. It’s the end of the month. Less then 10 weeks and our o level results are out. I’m scared.

Why am i thinking of such things now?! ENJOY NOW! Cry later. I haven’t been job hunting yet. I’m so freakishly lazy to work. Enjoying my myself now! There is no mood to work yet.

Who am i trying to lie? Ever wonder why? What is your purpose of doing that to me? This is why i’m starting to hate you.

I need money. Who doesn’t?

Its 4 am now. I just got back.

Anyways today i went to meet Tricia, Kamelia and Hafizah at tampines. We went to watch enchanted. Its nice. Should watch, kinda sweet. It finish at about 6pm. And we went to meet Rachel!

We took the bus to downtown east! And saw miss yong. We went in and eat eat and eat!! Later i feel like puking. Food was nice and lots of variety until you feel like.. what should i eat first huh.

We went to the beach next. And jingle’s mother was in hospital? so she went home early. Kaiyong needs to go home because he s going on a holiday later at 4 am. So we all decided to go home.

I went home. Got bored because. WHY MUST I GO HOME SO EARLY WHEN MY PARENTS ARE NOT IN SINGAPORE. LOL. I asked ^&*( out to ton. So yea we ton.. until like 2:45am is it ? my sister make noise ask me go home. And my brother went to fetch me.

So i was bored so we went to haunted places.. like red house at pasir ris. The house at punggol. Etc etc. And went home.

Parents not at home. Can do anything =D. My.. sister just woke up and she said, i feel like ordering mcdonald. LOL.

We went to watch Beowolf. Organiser is Shi Ming. The movie is boring. Anyways its my first NC16 movie! LOL

Siwei, Jingting, Syafiq, Nasrin, Yuen Siang ,Yong Seng, Shi Ming, Andy and me! We meet at tampines mrt but organiser is late. So he sponsored whose movie ticket ah? The movie is boring! Like i wanted to sleep. But nevermind ah SM don’t know that the movie boring and abit nudish part.

So we went take neoprint. 9 people. Nasrin didn’t want to take. Fun. Hot. We went take arcade and then dinner. First time i tried strawberry milk tea. I LIKE IT! We took number 3 and off we go to pasir ris! and we walk and walk to the beach ! By that time around 8pm+ and the beach was like so empty and dark.

Played at the playground. Swing swing climb climb the spider web thingy. The cut on the hand tore open again and blood come rushing out. So we end up sitting at the breakwater and enjoy the seabreeze listening to sad song and emoing. lol.

And by that time yongseng already gone home and he came to meet us again at about.. 10pm+? And he brought along sparklers! So we play and play like fun. And pollute the area with smoke from the sparklers lol.

And we went home by 11pm. It was enjoyable indeed!

I think that is.. Siwei, Jingting, Shiming and Andy.

 See jingting covering her nose. Choked from the awful smell of the sparklers.

Moon. Suppose to be cresent shape but somehow like circle.

i love 4E5!

Well, we finally graduated? Is this the end?

6:30PM at the Raffles City Convention Centre. Right? Swisssotel The Stamford. Something like that.

I wore white because i know majority will wear black so i wanna be different. Meet Liyana, Hafizah and Rachel at the tampines MRT. Took the train went to cityhall to meet Syafiq wait for Sean and Tricia. Etc etc. They called me white angel. lol.

Anyways went up up up the escalator. Took our attendance.. Take pictures. Enter the ballroom? Sat at the back. So many spoons and forks lol and Ms Ng was teaching us which spoons to use but in the end she said it still go in the same path LOL. Food was okay. The desert was exceptionally great especially the chocolate cake. I WANT MORE!!

There were slideshows like showing pictures of our class it was great done by syafiq right? good job! (: etc etc.. Some games.. etc Some performance. Dancing. Pretty much all that. I sat the back with other 4E5-ians and.. it seems we were the only noisy ones… like cheering and stuff like that.

Everyone look so nice (: The HCF look cool! haha. I like their hair man! So nice and cool and different X) All wear black! Nice.

There was some lucky draw didnt won anything but top prise was sponsored by MS DORIS YONG ! Our form teacher. And the winner was Xin Tze! From 4E5 HURRAY! GO 4E5!

Mr Siglap is GORDON! HURAAY 4E5!! Ms Siglap is Fadzila. What else ? Went home. Parents fetch. Ended about 11+ PM

The journey ends here? Kinda sad thinking about it.

Must send me grad nite pictures X)

And KEEP IN TOUCH OKAY! X) I’m so gonna miss this.. and everyone and 4E5 and the teachers except SHERINE WONG. She can go fly kite. Lol.

I LOVE 4E5 (: BEST CLASS! <3333333333
Must keep in touch!
I’m kinda sad now. Can’t describe enough in words how wonderful it is to be in 4E5 with nice great wonderful amazing etc etc people (: and teachers who taught 4E5.

 Bloody nice cake.

Table.

 4E5′s Faizal Singing!

Physics was quite easy. Thank God.
Chemistry – tricky.

O LEVEL IS FINALLY OVER!!
DYE HAIR!!

Read Carefully and Understand the Meanings:

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don’t cry over anyone who won’t cry over you. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? If love isn’t a game, why are there so many players?

Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push! Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don’t let the past hold you back, you’re missing the good stuff. Life’s short. If you don’t look around once in a while you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. Some people make the world special by just being in it. Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you’re scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there. True friendship never ends.

Friends are forever. (BULLSHIT lol)

Good friends are like stars….you don’t always see them, but you know they are always there. Don’t frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Everything is okay in the end. If it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If you love something…let it go. If it comes back to you its yours…. If it doesn’t then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one your thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. Love is just a word until its proven to you.

Bought it already!! At VivoCity! About $200. Daryl spend what? $600. crazy.

Haven buy accessories, contact lens and footwear!

DYE HAIRRRRRR!!

Went watch movie stardust. quite okay. saw other people. went home. bought the music theory grade 1 – 5 $6 only. cheap.

Run to library they don’t have the music practical/theory grade 5. Run to popular don’t have. Run to YAHAMA MUSIC SCHOOL. HAVE. Some guidebook grade 1 to 5. Its better to start from 1 rather than reading grade 5 and couldn’t understand a thing.

Yesterday talked to Mr Lee, Siglap Philharmonic Choir conductor. He said ‘ it’s always better to have grade 5 in practical/theory that’s the bare minimum to start in music career’ Getting the qualification is half and the other half is having a wide network so able to find jobs easily. So yea, go to a music exhibition and ask for everyone’s number.

Ohh he also mention that the NAFA’s Access Course(Music) is tough. It’s like a crash course for music lover with no background. That sound pretty scary. Furthermore, that course isn’t cheap it is nearly $2000. For those bloody morons who think that is cheap GO TO HELL. X) Sponsor me ?

I’m just scared half way through the course i couldn’t cope and drop out. I’ll be wasting the money. I can do better things with that money, like fulfilling my wish list.

‘there are many many talented people out there those who did music since primary school blessed to learn music eat live and breathe music since young. you have the gifted ones who don’t need much effort to be good in music’ said Mr Lee.

What about me? I’m 16. SIGH. but he said its never too late to start. That is the reason why i bought the music theory guidebook. I’m still reading grade 1. Yes i know that O levels are not finish yet for me that is. I should concentrate on O levels first. READ A WHILE LAH -.-

He said, if i can digest grade 5, try considering it. I’m scared to flip through the grade 5 page. What if i can’t digest ANYTHING. I’m so doom. FORGET ABOUT PURSUING CAREER IN THIS SECTOR. SADD. It shows another thing, I’M BLOODY FREAKISHLY RETARDED. I’M GOOD FOR NOTHING. GO DIE LAH.

Seriously, its sad. I’ve to face the reality, i’m a dumbfuck. And yes kamelia, there is a test to enter into the diploma of music. I emailed NAFA yesterday and i’ve received a reply. I forgot some of my questions but one of them was.. will it clash with the april intake because i asked a senior 2 years older than me, when it was her time poly starts on 24 april. A senior 1 year older than me, starts on 12 april. Perhaps mine will start ealier?

If you would like to apply for our Access Course, you may not need to meet the certification of Grade 8 practical and Grade 5 theory. However, you will be tested along to that music standard.

For Diploma course, most of our applicants are ready to challenge up to the minimum requirements as the audition screening is stricter. Therefore, the access course would act as a preparatory level for applicants who feel they’re not up to the diploma standard.

We have no guarantees if the access course would end just before the intake with polytechnics as we schedule our courses in such a way that it would sync with our Diploma course.

I DON’T HAVE ANY MUSIC BACKGROUND. I’M MAKING A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF.

I should just forget about this career. I’m stupid. Annoyed and sad. I should set some more realistic goals.

I’m gonna burn that music theory book with my other o level books.

I must be fucking insane or drunk when i said i wanted to be a conductor.

my youngest cat.

Manageable.

Studied 7 chapters including aging population and sustaining development. It came out and i did sustaining development.

I’m confused and sad. I have this ambition of being a conductor but i don’t mind being a music teacher. My cousin said this afternoon there is no qualification needed to enter Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts (NAFA).

She said she wants to go there and take art because she is an art student. So i was like hhmm if i did badly i can go there? I wanna study music!! and my ambition can come true. I went to check out their website and i saw this, Access Course ( Music ) Enrolment commences from 1st November to 14th December 2007.The Access Course runs from January each year and provides a bridge for young musicians straight from secondary school to prepare them for full time study in music whether at NAFA or elsewhere.

The enrolment.. i wanna know my o level results first. If i get my o level results and i wanna go to NAFA i have to wait till 1st november 2008? Meaning i’ll be wasting a year doing nothing. So i’m in a dilemma. I checked the application form also and i saw, Instrument played and Grade. What if i don’t play any instrument? I’m not qualified to enter? or will that put me to a disadvantage?

I don’t know. What should i do.

But i am from the choir. The website also states that, It is designed especially for those who have participated fully in the CCA programme – Chinese Orchestra, Symphonic Band, Orchestra, Choir and Ensembles etc, but may be lacking in formal qualifications.

Tell me how.

My parents don’t really allow such career because they want be a diploma in engineering because engineers earn alot. But i don’t care. I wanna study music.